Tuesday, May 01, 2007
The Bridge
The land on the other side of the waters looked uninviting and unwelcoming, as he stood on the bridge outstretched onto the other bank. He was returning home. Supposedly. The land on the opposite bank had nurtured a bedlam he had called home for the past two decades. Sometimes he would like to think that he was already numb to the pandemonium and chaos they could induce on his mind, but it was always when he felt himself cracking up and breaking down that he realised that he was not the bastion of strength and impregnable fortress beneath his icy cool facade.
He stood on the bridge, with his arms on the side railings, gazing at the waters below him. He saw himself in the waters and he stared hard at himself. Those eyes were so still and expressionless. His entire demeanour was just chilling- the air of aloofness had seemingly encased him in a space capsule where time had been frozen. He looked just like an artificial effigy, totally unperturbed and oblivious to his surroundings. At least that was what the reflection seemed.
The water surface that mirrored his image was smooth and rippleless. It was as still as his eyes, almost stagnant and disturbingly tranquil. He identified with the waters. The velvety surface was just like him; however, the waters resembled him not just on the surface, but strikingly parallelled himself even more underneath. The water below the top layer of disguise was turbulent, choppy and tumultuous. Pretty much like the invisible waves each of his heartbeat sends to the rest of the body when the heart organ pounds grudgingly. He was glad that he found a soul mate in the waters. The inanimate waters was like a juxtapose of his own life, but he would be more than willing to swap positions with the waters if given an opportunity. He would prefer to be inanimate and insentient. He longed for a quiescent mind, or even a defunct one, so that the burden of emotions, consciousness and free will would not be upon his aching shoulders.
The land ahead was where he ought to be heading, but the land behind was where he wanted to be. Each time he stepped onto the bridge, it was a matter of an unwilling choice. He even wondered if it was even a choice at all. But he chose to perservere. Such suffering would produce perserverance. And perserverance, character; and character, hope.
He knew that hope would not disappoint. Especially if he trusts in Him.
He stood on the bridge, with his arms on the side railings, gazing at the waters below him. He saw himself in the waters and he stared hard at himself. Those eyes were so still and expressionless. His entire demeanour was just chilling- the air of aloofness had seemingly encased him in a space capsule where time had been frozen. He looked just like an artificial effigy, totally unperturbed and oblivious to his surroundings. At least that was what the reflection seemed.
The water surface that mirrored his image was smooth and rippleless. It was as still as his eyes, almost stagnant and disturbingly tranquil. He identified with the waters. The velvety surface was just like him; however, the waters resembled him not just on the surface, but strikingly parallelled himself even more underneath. The water below the top layer of disguise was turbulent, choppy and tumultuous. Pretty much like the invisible waves each of his heartbeat sends to the rest of the body when the heart organ pounds grudgingly. He was glad that he found a soul mate in the waters. The inanimate waters was like a juxtapose of his own life, but he would be more than willing to swap positions with the waters if given an opportunity. He would prefer to be inanimate and insentient. He longed for a quiescent mind, or even a defunct one, so that the burden of emotions, consciousness and free will would not be upon his aching shoulders.
The land ahead was where he ought to be heading, but the land behind was where he wanted to be. Each time he stepped onto the bridge, it was a matter of an unwilling choice. He even wondered if it was even a choice at all. But he chose to perservere. Such suffering would produce perserverance. And perserverance, character; and character, hope.
He knew that hope would not disappoint. Especially if he trusts in Him.
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Well said.